sigh, I feel like I am such a coward and a good-for-nothing.

seriously, can anyone tell me what am I good at?
I am sure they will say I am good at computers, and maybe good at ... what?

computers.. so what? how does that benefit me now..? with computers, I just sit down in front of it for the whole day, playing games and browsing web. it makes me feel so out of touch.

I am a coward and good-for-nothing... yea, somehow I am describing myself with those negative words is because I know I want something, but I am unable to get it willingly.

ARGH.... why my life is such so spoilt? maybe it's this family, or this house that caused me this way.