Tuesday, February 5, 2008

went to work for 5 hours, doing the same thing again. stick license key, put into box, seal it, over and over and over and i can just make myself feel numb rather than 'getting bored of it'. anyways, damien and kong liang came today and they left to other place for work at 1PM. 1PM was lunch time for me and after lunch i went back and continued my work ALONE! i felt a little odd when i went into the office but after a while i feel that it's nothing. working alone seems rather fine to me.

my working hours end at 3PM, but the boss was like still away and i was panicking, wondering how should i get my pay. earlier on i actually got $20 from the boss when damien and kong liang were going off. then the lady operator gave me my pay instead. she counted of cuz 5x5 which is $25 AND SHE WAS GOING TO GIVE ME the $25. but i told her just give me $5 will do cuz the boss gave me $20 earlier on. omg, i can't believe this kind actually happens. IM HONEST! =) saying if im on the dark side, greeding for the money - i can believe that next time retribution will be on me, so i'd rather stay safe than greed.. if not those money wont be spent peacefully.

yet again, for these 2 days there were actually 2 chances for me to do some good deed. during the first day, when i was going home, the MRT was totally totally full. everyone tried to squeeze in of cuz but then when i went in, there's this girl standing outside trying to get in. right, at this moment, i should tell damien that we should wait for the next train and let the girl board instead. but whatever happens to "LADY FIRST"? my mind didn't have that thought until the door closes. WHAT THE~~..

as for today, the good deed i should have done was to help a lady fill chilli sauce for her. nothing much though but i think i didnt have the right traits that time. no idea why. sigh. is god trying to test me or what?.

ok, so back to topic. after getting the pay, i immediately rush off to tampines to meet my friends to play badminton. played as usual and after playing, we filled up our stomach at the nearby food palace.

then again, i was innocent. darren told me what he wanted to say and i really think that i AM innocent. petty and complain over some event that i could be happy for? wow, that isn't me.
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sometimes, till now, i really wonder why friends were ignoring me during 2007. i really cant figure out why. they seem to be able to chat with one another but just can't be me. it doesn't link u see. i didn't do anything wrong but few of them see me as one who DID something wrong.

ok, another. why some happy events for me seems like there's a story behind it? i really dont understand. is that supposed to have a BAD story behind or is that supposed to be something specially made for me?

some friends - i can feel, i can trust, i can rely - just doesn't seem to be at the side by me. those by my side is always the casual friends who just go out for fun.

ok, enough.