1st of all congrats to myself as this is my first 100th post in my whole blog.. lol

anyways, i feel dead about my life. there's just no surprises and whatever "life is full of surprises ^^" that's just B-S. there's no fun in my life as i just bring myself to do the same thing over and over and over again. i just dont know why i cant break this off. there are no spices, obviously and i do not wish to repeat again.

everything's nothing - seems like no one can fill me up with the laughter, peace and joy. *sob* :'(
yet again, i just hope many special surprises will happen around the corner or whatever.... =\

and yes, obviously im emoing about how shitty my life is.