yes, i laugh like never before and ALSO DAMN PISSED LIKE NEVER BEFORE.

this bastard is like damn proud of himself, showing off like some ass and DRAGGING PEOPLE DOWN. fuck. this thought went through my mind: "if you are so proud and trying to get As for everything, can't u keep it to yourself and stop showing off.. wtf." tmd, i've never met such distracting and irritating BASTARD in my life.

he said to me this when i came back from toilet: "you are so skinny.." i felt like bashing his face cuz he's like skinnier till look like gay, esp his legs.

he also said this to me "im more handsome than u." im like WTF?! who cares about handsomeness... and with that GUM-SHOWING smile of yours, I RATE YOU A FKING -100/100.

now, i can say that things are really going boring for me. with this bastard haunting my mind and there's like no girls to talk to, and in which all i can do is to play and study - just what the hell is this, it's lifeless or i call it a game. if this is fantasy, maybe i WILL punch that bastard but it's reality. omfg.

i really wish to have some sweet dreams of what i am seeking for, which will come true and making me happy as i didn't have any since the start of poly life... sigh, i think i have lost the ability to dream cognitively .

all i can say is that im bringing on the sulky, emo face in public and i was wondering how people are thinking of me.

will someone just bring the light to my heart?