determination: it can really be something that is scary and fearful and it can also be something that helps you gain what you want.

i experienced it again on both sides, the good and bad.

GOOD
ok so in campus, how bored can one be without the games you wanna play. i mean it's not those simple single-player games where you finished it and that's that. it's games like WoW, maplestory, etc.

im so pissed but determined this time and so i start looking and searching for things called proxy and with proxy i will need programs to be able to use the proxy to play those online games with BUT THOSE ARE TO NO AVAIL. those proxies are either 403 forbidden or cannot connect at all. and continuing with the research, i found things like http tunnelling, SOCKs tunnelling etc. i dont really know what are those but i know it's a server you connect to in order to bypass BLOCKED PORTS and FIREWALLS in the campus router. i have no idea how to use them then again found programs like 'Your Freedom' and 'HTTP-Tunnel' in which i understood by then. these programs act as servers connectors which then allows the client to use their ISP to surf the net, and this is done together with proxy. (P.S.: HTTP Tunnel gave games to have 7k++ ms and that is like unplayable, Your Freedom gave 600+ms)

this is where the fun begins, once i realized that i am able to play online games at LOWER LATENCY with Your Freedom, i know how all these works already. then looked up on how to CREATE MY OWN TUNNELLER AT HOME and finally created one! the power of determination made me learnt something new.

BAD
well, i shall keep this short. basically when it comes to games, you are very determined to gain something new then you will keep on grinding. this brings the lack of sleep giving the 'pain' shit. the negative side of determination.