phone's finally back on and there i was listening to music, bringing me into deep sleep while on bus, on my way home.

my classmates has been teasing me again and well i can sort of get used to it.

i must say that i can withstand the hours of lecture today, and i was wondering why. vitality just can't be predicted, it's either sleepy mode or it's energetic mode, it's so damn random every time. i have been down on my luck for this term, as out of so many lectures i was in the sleepy mode. i have this feeling that i am unable to produce good results for term 2, sigh. every module is clinging deep onto my heart. and if that is so, i really am letting myself down since my interest is purely into computers.

what's into me? DREAM that is, i lack of dreams or i shall say i have never dream much since this year. i was always hoping for dreams to come, dreams that imply the future of myself, dreams that imply my happiness, my luck and so on. i really depend on it as though life is a dream.

also, i dont understand why my throat is getting very dry. because of this, i am always trying to keep my mouth closed, dont even wish to open it and say some words.

i am such a defect person, knowing that i am not the kind good for get-togethers, parties, etc. i can't speak much as what i say usually goes deep into my mind first before producing the output. then again, there's nothing much of topics to let me talk about and usually it's the other party who starts talking to me. DEFECT, PURELY.

one face, speaks my emotion : ='(