OMGWTF. news of no class today is so... rare. meh, i felt so free, just like melvin. ok, whatever it is, like i said i have entry and pictures to post in 8 hours time and yea so here it is.

and before our electricity here shuts down at 10am, gonna finish this asap.

ok yea, went out yesterday with zhihao to jurong east for a game of pool after my class. for this, it is the first time i continued down to west side after class, pathetic i know, lol. i guess im rather active for that time cuz i have LOTS to say, to tell him. it's from MRT to pool to lunch to going home, i kept talking. and how rare can this be, cuz this isn't the usual me.

for the game of pool, i basically quite sucked as i think i lost much of my skill. zhihao win all the games and i didnt even win one haha. dont mind that, it's just a game and not competition or whatever.

we went to have lunch at LJS after pool. meh, the students that was around suck to the core, they are so bitchy and bastardy. (yea nice word rofl).

on the MRT home, zhihao told me there's a few chiobus around. typical him, well. of course, it's part of me too to look at them. harhar. then i saw one girl who looks like the actress in Secret. there's this another girl too who was sitted just at the opposite row, she seemed to be looking at me and zhihao. yea, it's very clear this time, i do look and realized that she didn't turn back once i saw her looking at us lol.

END.

here's some pic of my classmates.


austin, melvin(behind), adrian


T.T

my eyes are feeling dead beat after doing all the wiring and soldering of my IE project. omfg, if this thing doesn't work, im gonna go hysterical. the board is short-circuited all over now but i hope after doing some breaking of conduction, it might be better. hmph.

anyways, my thumb bled and my fingernails are like numb to the max thx to those bloody painful and HARD solid wires.

omgwtfbbq. LOL.

im having a few pics to post but not now. maybe 8 hours later. hahas. also having an entry to post and will be posted 8 hours later.

lol. i cant believe what happened today. i dont know why but when i wanted to pass austin's laptop back to him while he asked me to hold.... the laptop dropped out of the bag and it smashed onto the floor. *OOPS*, damn i was in total shock. well, the bag wasn't zipped and i was totally unaware of it. sigh.

SoRRY AUSTIN!

after what happened, everyone thought that it's my laptop which dropped. T.T.

walao. today woke up late lah and i aint get to sit in an empty MRT.

it always sucks when you are standing in the MRT. people are just so inconsiderate and STUPID, they just squeeze here and there like there's no feeling. fuk.

to nigel: rofl, i know the hair resembles the 'forests'. hahaha.

and yea, IE will suck. our project is like independent for everything.. omg. so hard to manage without the proper brief.

nigel is just super extremely ultimately hilarious today. he was making fun of juin long so much till that it took like 4+ hours. LOL!

well, i can feel the stress is coming now. damn this IE project which we have to solder it up. the looks of the messy placing wires makes me feel groggy and i wont have the patience. grrrgah.


and oh ya, during lunch today i went to mac with chek, etc.

while i went to queue for mac, some girls came forward and asked: "hey, would u like to write something so that you can give and send this to your friend?" i went like "huh?!" yea, i saw their camera and they told me about it and i agreed. well, i was thinking of food that time and i wrote "Dude, eat something fresh. LoL!" they then took a picture of it. hmm~ i find it rather lame to write that but whatever. T.T and seriously, i was so damn stunned till i dont even know what to tell them when they asked me for school etc, omfg.

then they told me to go their blog to look at it but wth, i dont even know what's their blog address. omg.

and some said it's their FYP.

so could anyone tell me what club/school are they from?
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also, here's some few cool skies i could share.

i have no idea why am i so into Portal again these few days.

what's happening seems like im getting bored of WoW until WotLK is released. i love the new hunter talents and warrior talents in WotLK. Death Knight is definitely a need to roll one. omg, i cant wait.

CLICKED with some. <- a word with all the meanings in my class. anyways, i was just wondering about myself. am i that homesick or what - everytime wishes to reach home as early as possible.

possibilities that may be true:
1) wanna play WoW
2) enjoy the comfort at home
3) nothing to do in campus
4) i am such a person without enthusiasm

hmm.

wow, i didn't realized that with the help of my classmates who could explain to me about the IE project, i became enlightened immediately.

on the multisim, i done both the original ( output: E, 1, 2 ,3 ) and one on my own ( output: L, 5, 6, 7 ) without much hiccups. hah yay.

oh yah, i managed to install ELF(Executable Linking Format) onto my k800, but it's working like only 20% =(. lots of ELF application crashes my phone. damn.

to nigel: haha, but to me u seems like one of those who talks more than me, as you can see i usually sit alone LOL.

it is a 'hot' day for austin today LOLLOLLOLLOL.

pictures on world of warcraft.


my cute-looking tauren warrior =D


and my fierce/cool looking hunter

phone's finally back on and there i was listening to music, bringing me into deep sleep while on bus, on my way home.

my classmates has been teasing me again and well i can sort of get used to it.

i must say that i can withstand the hours of lecture today, and i was wondering why. vitality just can't be predicted, it's either sleepy mode or it's energetic mode, it's so damn random every time. i have been down on my luck for this term, as out of so many lectures i was in the sleepy mode. i have this feeling that i am unable to produce good results for term 2, sigh. every module is clinging deep onto my heart. and if that is so, i really am letting myself down since my interest is purely into computers.

what's into me? DREAM that is, i lack of dreams or i shall say i have never dream much since this year. i was always hoping for dreams to come, dreams that imply the future of myself, dreams that imply my happiness, my luck and so on. i really depend on it as though life is a dream.

also, i dont understand why my throat is getting very dry. because of this, i am always trying to keep my mouth closed, dont even wish to open it and say some words.

i am such a defect person, knowing that i am not the kind good for get-togethers, parties, etc. i can't speak much as what i say usually goes deep into my mind first before producing the output. then again, there's nothing much of topics to let me talk about and usually it's the other party who starts talking to me. DEFECT, PURELY.

one face, speaks my emotion : ='(

wow, i really hate it when i saw my phone's battery suddenly went to like 1/5 of the bar when it was much full yesterday. yeah, that happened in the morning and obviously i knew that it's gonna be a boring day without my music when i am traveling home.

i took bus home today and instead of listening to music, i was listening to all the chit-chatty noises of the passengers and i feel so damn vexed. still, i was able to take a long nap without much problem at all, rofl. well, im getting bored with my lists of music anytime soon. everything becomes a 'perfect' routine for goodness.

tests are coming again and i know none can escape these, live it and face it for that's my style.

having too many friends isn't my style, seriously. however, if a friend that is able to be with you forever, i bet that is a rather different case.

p.s.: i need deep hibernation - to get rid of my current sad life, to get rid of all my ugly stuff on my face and many many more, maybe wishing to stop facing this world for some time.

i have to repeat again and again that time really flies.

and as time flies, it brings me lots of fears. fears of losing whatever i have, fears of exams and tests, fears of failing, and so on. these fears kept in my heart has changed me - into a very hectic person. what i meant is, i became one of those lone ranger, again, but that WAS me. is this bad or good? would someone just tell me their opinions?

i really hope to gain something back which i have lost for many years and that is care.

see this?
i am just too lonely i can tell ya.
pictures i took has never included a person.








and please read the post below.

im really running out of patience. where in the world can i find my wish, where in this world am i able to get what i want?!

the people i face in the cyber-world are really pissing me off. some are just 自以为是, meaning that they think they are always right, and some are just kids trying to smash our integrity. IMO, most people are not matured at all, they either criticise or giving stupid comments all over the place.

and in this world, everything is rising - world temperature, world product prices(that is petrol, rice, food), HUMAN'S EXPECTATION, f***ing everything. because of these, i feel myself outdated, useless and i am not the one who is 'eye-candy' at all.

like i said, this world is not balanced anymore. even the time movement(i mean light years as in the universe time) is moving extremely quick. 1 week is like 1 day to me.

if time is moving so quick and i gain nothing but knowledge, what the hell is the purpose of my life anyways?

i despise myself for the ultimate weakness i have. i'd hope i could i go to the other extreme end but it's rather .. . my goodness and interests has never been appreciated(expect parents of cuz).

so really, is there anyone in the corner of the world that have the same thinking like me, wishing for a partner, wishing for everything to be the same like previous? i really need an angel, a partner, to stabilize my thoughts and my emotions. argh.

wow. term 2 of poly life is even lousier. my vitality is dropping like mad, getting fatigue all over and i can't listen to lecture.

DE and PEEE are the worse subjects for now as both are currently on the 'big' topics which i cant absorb as quick like usual.

still, my way of releasing stress is just to watch the nice clouds in the skies and taking picture of it. playing WoW is 2-sided, it's either stressing or stress-relieve. being a loner is necessary for the state im in right now, or else my attention-span gets disrupted.

to nigel: lol, we gotta face it. we can't do anything about it .


AND i need a 'tenshi' to be by my side. but, who would appreciate me for what i am, for the interest i have and so on?

THIS WORLD IS BLOODY IMBA-ED.

i cant face it.

gotten back all of my MST papers and i must say my results are just average.

Maths: 85.5/100
SPRG: 87/100
PEEE: 64/100
DE: 72/100

i dont bargain for more as i know what i did during my routine which gives me this kind of results. however, i feel that i should be able to do even better.

my efforts and my fast-understanding brain did not fail me. what i did at home actually yield something special: i can actually connect to my home computer from campus.

so, believe it or not, like it or not - i am a comp geek, who fails to be a perfect person but perfect in the binary world.

determination: it can really be something that is scary and fearful and it can also be something that helps you gain what you want.

i experienced it again on both sides, the good and bad.

GOOD
ok so in campus, how bored can one be without the games you wanna play. i mean it's not those simple single-player games where you finished it and that's that. it's games like WoW, maplestory, etc.

im so pissed but determined this time and so i start looking and searching for things called proxy and with proxy i will need programs to be able to use the proxy to play those online games with BUT THOSE ARE TO NO AVAIL. those proxies are either 403 forbidden or cannot connect at all. and continuing with the research, i found things like http tunnelling, SOCKs tunnelling etc. i dont really know what are those but i know it's a server you connect to in order to bypass BLOCKED PORTS and FIREWALLS in the campus router. i have no idea how to use them then again found programs like 'Your Freedom' and 'HTTP-Tunnel' in which i understood by then. these programs act as servers connectors which then allows the client to use their ISP to surf the net, and this is done together with proxy. (P.S.: HTTP Tunnel gave games to have 7k++ ms and that is like unplayable, Your Freedom gave 600+ms)

this is where the fun begins, once i realized that i am able to play online games at LOWER LATENCY with Your Freedom, i know how all these works already. then looked up on how to CREATE MY OWN TUNNELLER AT HOME and finally created one! the power of determination made me learnt something new.

BAD
well, i shall keep this short. basically when it comes to games, you are very determined to gain something new then you will keep on grinding. this brings the lack of sleep giving the 'pain' shit. the negative side of determination.